I want to tell you a little bit about my old life: I'm Chinese with very strong Buddhist traditions. I had many problems growing up. I was fearful, insecure, and withdrawn. My mother took me to Kwan Yin Temple for help. The priest prayed for the spirits of Dragon and Dog to come into me for protection. I was also taken to a fortune teller for help. I carried prayers, written on yellow papers with chicken blood, to protect me. Now, I'm worse than before. I've opened myself to demonic spirits. I have two personalities -- mostly shy, timid Violet, but sometimes the controlling and demanding Dragon Lady, Sue Ling.
I joined a Christian church, but didn't really understand what it meant to be a Christian. I was confused. Now I worshipped Buddha and Jesus. I had many problems as a young adult. I was anxious and got addicted to Valium. I had headaches, backaches, and chest pains. I made myself sick to get attention, and got myself admitted to St. Francis Hospital 28 times in six years. But the doctors could never find anything wrong with me. I was always searching, looking for something, but I didn't know what it was. And the many ministers and psychiatrists who counseled me didn't have the answers and couldn't help.
Finally, at age 42, with much weeping and desperation, I cried out loud to the Lord: "I'll give you one more chance. I'll see one more doctor. If he can't help me, then forget it. I'll live my life my own way!"
Well, the Lord heard me. He led me to a Christian doctor and his wife. They knew it was not a physical or mental problem -- it was a spiritual problem. I needed Jesus. But first I needed to be delivered from my strong demonic spirits. The Lord delivered me, using a godly man (who lived with the doctor's family) to set me free. I was saved from my sins -- renounced Buddha and all evil influences in my life and was born again that day. I became His new creation, and was delivered from 42 years of darkness into His wonderful light.
God gave me these three friends who discipled me and helped me with my Christian walk. Now I'm His beautiful butterfly!
In closing, I want to give a Scripture about what happened to me:
"I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me." Galatians 2:20Thank you, Jesus, for my changed life. Your butterfly is forever grateful.